hello again blog. so nice to finally write to you
this is something i will never forget. for the past hectic four days, i was in hksbp zon selatan in samura. well, it had been a life changing experience being there withh all debaters, bahas and basket, and we've been through soooo much. so now gonna reveal a few things bout it. stf was in da same group with other 6 sbps, i guess. 1st match with sasaer, second was with smssi, 3rd with cant remember. 4th with mozac, 5th with sdar and lastly with sakti. alhamdullilah, stf won all 6 matches and became the group winner. it was one more small step to finally go to paser putih, but unlucky for us, we lost with samura. so it concluded dat samura and tkc are gonna go to national.
it was heartbreaking really, after all we've been through, just dis one match we lost had changed everything. i know, who am i to comment about the decision, let the people around you tell what was supposed to happen. couldnt figure out, wat was wrong, because i never had the confidence about winning like i had after the match with samura, but again, who am i to judge. i believe everything happened for a very good reason, that sometimes you might know nothing about, but as long as yoou believe that's the best for you, then you just have to accept it. sorry everyone, friends and families, who had been so good to support and ask about our condition, but the frustration in me, is still there, buried and lonely, and i just dont have the nerve to tell you about the bad news, because me myself cant believe what had just happened to us. i'm really sorry and i hope by writing in this, you all will know how i felt bad about not telling you, because just by saying the words it hurts.
now, i am trying real hard to accept this, because i believe winning is not everything, but wanting to win is. maybe because we want to win sooo badly, it hurts more. yet, i am not being ungrateful to God, i know whatever he decided, it's the best for us. i'm sure bout that. im thankful, that i have had the chance to eexperience everything, the exhaustion, the tiredness, the winnings, and losing. i had the chance to be in a team, and uphold the same thing, and believe that everyone was needed to help each other, and had people who was there when we needed. THANX A ZILLION, to my teammates, KQis, Pika, Dammy, the backbone of every success, Kimi. comments i nvr thought i'll ever hear, Razak sdar :) , the teachers, Sir Rashid, Mdm Reeza, bahas bm, supporters, wonderful friends, stfians and all. i love you!
the greatest success is not in never failing, but rising everytime we fall. debaters, we could still have our new blazers :D
